School has ended an hour early 3
days in a row now. No reason, just has. May have something to do with football,
or just that people don't feel like staying til 3- just go with it.
So far, I’ve learned that not having something
for my students to do means bad things.
NEVER LET THESE STUDENTS NOT BE BUSY!!!!
Sometimes, someone will decide in the middle of the day that the school
is going to skip a period altogether, because we don’t have time (even though
we get out an hour early and nobody can tell us why). This happened on the first day, when we
missed 3rd period. Did I know
we were skipping it? Nope. Found that out as we were skipping it, and my
4th period students showed up.
Out of all the challenges I had expected to encounter here, it had never
occurred to me that knowing when my classes start and end would be one of them. It’s also interesting because my students
always ask me when class is going to end or when the bell is going to ring- I
think “ring” is a funny choice of words, because that’s what the bells at home
do- but they should know after 3 years of being at Leone that I know just as
good as they do. Why do they bother
wanting to know the class schedule when we don’t follow it? I try to explain to them, “well, class was
supposed to end 10 minutes ago, but since it started 20 minutes late, I’m not
really sure when the bell will ring”.
They don’t get why I don’t know when class is over. I must be the crazy
one.
Josh and I went to school early one day because
we were told there was a mandatory coaches meeting (I was thinking of coaching
girl’s bball—go ahead, everyone laugh.)
We showed up at 7:30am, which is when the meeting was (which we already
knew we were not following Samoan rules—why would we ever show up at the time
it says it should start? We should know better than that). We went to the library, where the meeting was
supposed to be held, and the door was locked. We asked around, nobody knew what
we were talking about. The principal, who had told us to come that day at 730,
was in his office speaking with one football coach. We still don’t know what ever happened to
that meeting.
Students/Behavior/Teaching in AmSam
My first day of school, a
boy came into my classroom carrying his own set of speakers, blasting rap
music. Many of the boys have their own speakers that they carry around with
them while doing their best thug walk.
I’ll admit to being a strong believer in having a theme song to your
life playing constantly. But I’m amazed that full volume Eminem is allowed at
school for all to hear. This is the same
kid who told me, “it’s the first day, relax”.
I don’t need to repeat the words I said to him. Needless to say, I had a tough time getting
him to turn his speakers off (because I was already playing music on my
computer for us), but he hasn’t brought them back since.
I think
it was Wednesday that was the toughest day.
I remember being really fed up with my class not listening even though I
was being really strict. When I do raise
my voice or just stand there until one of them tells all the rest to shut up,
or give one of the really disruptive ones my “I’m waiting” glare, they are very
apologetic. But then they do it again.
Not to mention my “no Samoan in the classroom” rule is going to go to absolute
shit. There’s no way to enforce it. I even told them if I hear Samoan at a time that
I haven’t said it’s okay, I will just assume they are swearing at me. But when
there is a constant lull of Samoan in the classroom, it’s hard to punish anyone. I’ve told them I want to learn Samoan (and
that I won’t believe them when they try to teach me words because I know it’ll
be something dirty), and I think they should pride themselves are being
bilingual, but that I am here to help with their English as well as science,
and therefore they will be speaking English in the classroom unless I say
otherwise. But ha. Joke.
So the one day I was about ready to cry,
Kristina came into my room and told me she had already had two fights in her
classroom. One ended with a girl’s head
going into a bookshelf. After that, I
felt my day was going rather well. Some
of us teachers have complained about our not-so-great classrooms or about not
having a whiteboard, or that our schools have not received any supplies like
paper or chalk yet. Then a few lucky volunteers remind us: “uhhh, at least you
have classrooms….”
A few teachers do not have classrooms at
all. Dan does not have any kind of board
(chalk or white), so he writes everything on a piece of notebook paper and
tacks it on the wall. The other Sara is teaching Samoan history. She’s from Texas. She does not have textbooks to look to. Rule
of thumb with teaching in Samoa: It
could always get worse, so consider yourself lucky.
The boys in my classroom are little shits. Some of them are nice, but still disruptive,
but others are just such smartasses. Even
though it’s mostly in Samoan, I can still tell they’re making stupid adolescent
boy remarks to/about me. However, when
it’s in English, I love handling it. On
Friday, two boys were standing in my doorway trying to talk to kids in my class
and I was trying to begin class. I waved
at them, said, “Bye!!!! Okay, time to leave now.” in my sweet but
listen-to-me-now teacher voice that I’ve often heard my mom use with her 4th
grade students. They still weren’t
leaving, so I walked to my classroom door, say “thank you, come again, see you
laterrr”, and shut the door on them.
Since our windows aren’t really anything but screens with some glass
rectangles over them that are completely open, I saw them walk away and one
responded just loud enough so my class and I could hear it “see you
toniiiight”. I heard a few chuckles from my cheeky boys, and then I replied,
“In your dreaaammmsss”. That got a good
laugh, as well as some “OHHHH!!!!!”s from my class. Proud moment.
I’m sure behavior issues in class will get much
more exciting, so I’ll skip all the minor issues of last week. I only sent one girl out of my classroom this
week- on Friday. I’m glad I finally did,
I needed to make an example. I didn’t
send her to the principal’s; I just wanted her to sit outside for a while. I was speaking to the class, and I saw her
get up out of her seat, walk completely to the other side of the room, and slap
a boy as hard as she could on the head. Then she walked back to her seat and
sat down. Now, hitting is an everyday
thing here. As religious as it is here,
girls and boys all hit each other like it’s their job. Sometimes they’re just playing around, but
they hit HARD, especially when they’re mad. I looked at her while everyone else
looked at me, waiting to see what I would do, and said, “If you think you can
do that in my classroom and get away with it, you are absolutely CRAZY.” I told her to get out of my room, and she
said “No, miss, I’m sorry”. I just
pointed to the door. A few minutes
later, she asked if she could come back in (the truancy officers walk around
with a 2 x4 if students don’t have a pass, not sure how often they actually use
them though, but if she got caught she would have been sent to the principal).
I said no, she could come back when I told her she could. I looked at the kid who she hit, who was
smiling, and I said, “ I don’t know what you said to make her do that, but it
must’ve been pretty bad”. Then I
realized how much it sucked that I couldn’t punish him, even though I’m sure he
deserved it, because I have no idea what he said. Not only did I not really hear him say
anything, but it was also in Samoan. A few minutes later, I see the girl run
away from my doorway. I go outside to
look for her and have her come back in, and she’s gone. Oh well. Class ends and I’m cleaning up and she comes
in, kneels in front of my desk, clasps her hands together, and says, “Miss, I’m
so sorry.” I told her that I went
outside to let her back in and she was gone.
She said that she had run upstairs so she wouldn’t get caught. I, being the pushover that I am and such a
sucker for forgiveness, was way too quick to say, “it’s okay, don’t do it
again.” That was when I realized I was
too busy trying to get teacher things done to actually address the situation
like a real teacher would have, telling her that hitting is simply not
acceptable, and getting up in the middle of my class is disrespectful to me as
well. Next time I’ll handle it better.
Now, try and say the following:
Togisia, Petelo Faamanatu
Tuiolemotu, Asofaafetai
Ueligitone, Fuluitolo
Naolavoa, Mokenkepleval
Tili, Tiaoali'isolova'a.
No, this is not jibberish. These
are the names of some of my students. Tell me how I pronounce and memorize 150
of them. I’ll tell you how- you get them to have nicknames such as, John, O,
and PJ. I even have one student who’s
name is Bill Clinton. That is not his nickname.
It’s on his schedule. And Clinton isn’t even his last name. Bill Clinton
Tino. I tried hard not to crack a joke when I first looked at his schedule,
because I remembered being forewarned that there actually was a student named
Bill Clinton at Leone and the presidential jokes were a bit outdated. Now I’ve assigned seats (which they still
don’t really sit in, even though that means I’ve done attendance wrong a bunch
of times) to help me learn their names.
I gave my students a choice of a
writing prompt (I wanted a writing sample to see how good their English really
is and maybe try to figure out how much of what I say they can understand). They could either write about who the most
important person in their life was and why, or what they wanted to do or be
when they are older. Reading their
essays was very telling. I still haven’t
finished, but so far, one student wants
to be the governor of American Samoa, and many want to be in the NFL. Which is still a stretch, but not as crazy as
when kids in the states say it, because so many more here actually have a
chance. Many more want to go into the
military and are already in JROTC. Several want to search for their “real
siblings” or “real parents”, and several have lost their mothers or fathers. At least one has a daughter. All of the ones who chose the most important
person in their life wrote about their parents and how much they love
them. Though this seems typical, kids
here have a different relationship with their parents. Some did write about how their parents never
laid a hand on them, but others wrote that they love their parents despite the
fact, or even because their parents love
them enough to hit and beat them and discipline them. Or they wrote about how they know that their
parents beat them as a child because they loved them. It’s difficult to read at first, and I’m sure
I’d be even more upset if I saw it happen, which I’m sure I will see more of
than I have, but it is just a cultural thing.
It’s just what is done here. And
though there are groups of people trying to change this, even the kids say and
think it works and that kids here need that discipline. So, is hitting your kids right or wrong? I know how I feel about it, but I can’t say I
really have an answer for American Samoa where it stands now.
A lot of the essays were about
mothers, and how their mothers were basically older sisters for them. One even
gave me advice to have a relationship
with my mom like the relationship that she had with hers. I wrote back that I did, and that I thought
she should share her essay with her mom.
Having so many students write about how much they love their parents made
me miss mine so much!!! Family is just
so important here. I’ve thought a lot
about how that is one of the main things I think we give up in our hectic
American lives. And my family is pretty good about it- we live up and down the
East coast and everyone still makes a tremendous effort to visit one
another. But it still does not compare
to having the proximity to one another that they have here. This island is not
very big, and it certainly made me question why it is that people move away
from their families, even for other opportunities. Whenever I ride the bus there are huge
families partying, eating, playing volleyball, and listening to music outside
of their homes. And it’s not a once in a
while thing, it’s the norm. It’s also
weird to think of how disrespectful we can be to our parents in the
states. (but of course, I never was
;) , obviously). The spoiled kids yelling back at their
parents that you see in the states- wow that just soooooo would not fly here.
But the kids also write about
their goals and their families with a very different backdrop- it’s always
about God. Even though I’ve asked each
of them to either write about themselves or their most loved ones, every essay
at some point includes thanking God for what they have and that without God
they couldn’t achieve anything that they have or hope to achieve. One essay, however, did address this. Her essay said something like, -even though I
know God is supposed to be the number one most important factor of my life, I
have to say it is my mom-. It was
refreshing to hear someone acknowledge that.
I also had one write, “I want to
be like you- a teacher”. That just broke
my heart. I don’t think she even really
meant to direct it at me, since I barely know them yet, but it still made a light
inside of me shine a little bit. Even
though neither I nor her really know
what it’s like to be a teacher yet, anyone who wants to be a teacher, and I’ll
say it now, even as a Unitarian, God bless them. So I wanted to write (but didn’t…you go
girl!!!)
They’re writing is honestly quite weird- I don’t
know how they were taught to write the way they do. Most of them started their essays with,
“Well, the thing about me is…..” and they have really strange writing habits. I think a lot of it must be that so many of
them have learned English through hearing it and not seeing it- so words that
should begin with “P” instead begin with “B” in their writing. Also- I don’t know if it’s just here, but why
do all adolescents think they are gangsters??
Granted, we do have gangs here in high school, but they are called
crews- the Snow Boys (who live in Alaska—the “cold” part of Samoa), SOS (Sons
of Samoa), TAP boys, and many others. I
know it’s often a phase, but even the girls here think they are from the hood. Girls
stick picks in their hair. No, they do
not have afros. Some of the guys do,
though. I also had an essay written by a
girl who instead of writing “what” and “that”, she wrote, “wat” and “dat” over
and over again. I can’t believe that she would actually mean to write that
incorrectly on an assignment, but another part of me can’t believe that she
truly thinks that those words are spelled that way. Way too many students also wrote “gonna” and
“wanna”. Like, really? Another funny but cute habit is at the end they
all write, “Thank you for ________(sometimes it’s just thank you, sometimes
it’s about the choices or the writing prompt)”. Though it does seem like they
are sucking up, I’m pretty sure it’s just another cultural thing they do when
they write essays.
Kristina also assigned essays for her English
classes, and some are cute like the ones I got but many are also really
depressing. Students writing about being
lonely, not wanting to go home, basically all of the typical awful things you
hear and just want so badly to help. One
wrote that she thought nobody loved her. Allison, our neighbor who was a past
field director of WorldTeach, is a counselor at the community college here.
Sometimes I wish I could just counsel these kids rather than having to try to
beat the scientific method into their heads to make sure they know what it is
by the time they graduate high school (which is what I did Thursday and
Friday). It’s not even in the
standards/curriculum for my classes, but I simply cannot start teaching my subjects
without them knowing the scientific method.
I refuse to.
One of the weirdest/best/most
refreshing things about Samoan students is that no matter how much you yell at
them and threaten them and kick them out of class or how awful they are in the
classroom, at the end of every period they walk out of the door and say,
"Bye, Miss!!! Have a good day! See you tomorrow!" and when they walk
in the next day it's, "Hi Miss! How are you today! Fine? Tired? Good?"
When they see you outside of
class they are just as happy to see you, and they all say hi/bye when we walk
home. If we yelled/cursed (yes, a few of us have already cursed in the
classroom) at students this much in the states, they would hate us, tell their
parents, and get us fired!!! Here, if
they told their parents, their parents would come to us and say, “you just
yelled?? Next time, hit em with a stick”.
We saw a lot of students at the
football game today, and when Kristina went to have lunch, she was waiting for
Hannah to get there when some students told her that if she was alone, she
could eat with them. Awww.
Also, when Kristina and I
walked home on Friday, a student saw us, ran across the street to us, and told
us, “I need to protect you from the dogs while you walk home!” We walk this route every day, and yes, the
dogs have come after us (they tried to attack Kristina the other day), but
we’ve managed so far. But it was
adorable of him. Once we got past the
house with the meanest dogs, he said, “okay, you should be good from
here.” After he ran back to what he was
doing, Kristina then notified me that he was one of her students who was a
gangster and had written about the gang he was in for one of his essays (she
has learned most of the gangs now because her students taught her the names of
them). Anyway, this thug politely walked
us past the mean dogs. Some thug.
Another awwww.
I do have one student (who’s actually not even
in any of my classes, but really loved the WorldTeachers last year) who has
already made me understand how rewarding teaching is. He came into my class this week, introduced
himself, and started talking to me about school and literally EVERYTHING. He
told me that he wishes he had a science class this year, because he thinks
science is actually fun (he doesn’t really like his other subjects). He also told me that he really likes the
WorldTeachers. He was trying to explain
what was so good about WT, paused, and then said, “WorldTeachers make learning
fun”.
It wasn’t what he had said, but how he said it
that kind of jolted me. Not because I
thought I had yet achieved that high honor which he had reserved for only
WorldTeachers, but because I could only hope that I could do the same this year
for my students. He kept trying to
switch into my marine science class this week, but I don’t think he’ll be able
to. However, he has begun to visit my
classroom ALL THE TIME. Before school,
I’m in frantic planning mode or need to use my few minutes to pee for the last
time before lunch. During break (as if
we need more breaks at Leone, ha!). I use to go to the bathroom if I did not do
so in the morning. During lunch I’m
trying to catch up on entering attendance which takes me about 2 hours every
day since they’re names are ridiculous and they all move around seats or
pretend to be someone else every day.
Lunch is also when I try to run around school and find a copier/printer,
while shoving a pb&j in my mouth and rinsing it down with some water. I was successful this week- my one goal was
to find the printer (decided to set standards low for week 1). I found the printer I should use the rest of
the year!! Yay! Don’t know what happens
when it runs out of toner. After school
this student comes too (my busiest time of the day when I’m trying to be super
efficient and get home before it gets dark and the dogs get worse). And now another kid has started coming at his
own separate times as well. They are
both so sweet, and help me learn Samoan words, and tell me about their lives
and all of the cool places to go to in Samoa and all the legends and ghost
tales. All the questions I have about
Samoa or ideas that WorldTeachers put into action last year, I can ask
them. But I can’t have them I my
classroom all the time. Most of the time
they don’t even have questions, they are just looking for someone to talk to.
So I feel like I can’t kick them out! But I’m going to have to make
limits. It also probably doesn’t look
right that they come to my classroom so often- don’t want coconut wireless
spreading any false rumors.